Hello beautiful souls,
It’s been a minute since I posted and I thought I should acknowledge it rather than carry on regardless and hope no one notices. I have all the usual excuses you see, I am a Gemini who finds procrastination irresistible, I may actually be neurodivergent and lean towards having ADHD (something I’m discovering more recently), life actually has been really busy and I’ve taken on some new projects that have taken up my time and brain space, but one of the biggest reasons for my absence has been presence.
My presence with myself to be a little more clear. In finding myself tuning more and more into presence and turning more and more towards my true self and true voice over my ‘should’ voice, I’m creating more space for presence. This space has lead me to let go of some of the guilt I held around needing to be constant in my ‘presence’ here.
There are times when I am here consistently, tapping away at the keys and letting the words flow onto the paper and it is easy and fun and I love it, then there are other times when I sit here and draw a blank, when I can’t find the words, when my mind is filled with other things and it isn’t fun, and it doesn’t flow, and I don’t enjoy it.
I need to remember that this does not mean I’m failing, or I’m falling, or I’m no good. It doesn’t mean I’ve lost my flow or my mojo or my words. It simply means that in the cyclical nature of who I am as a human being, now is not the time for sharing words with the world, and the world can wait. It simply means that other things need me first, like my kids or my health or my home; other things need my attention and among all those other things that need my attention, rest is often at the top of the list.
So I’ve been resting, I’ve been tending to ‘other things’ and I’ve been listening when my body and mind tell me that the words aren’t the priority right now, and I trust that they will come back again and round and round the cycle will go.
No more guilt over shoulds.
In other news, Happy Spring Equinox and Bright Ostara Blessings to you all!
The last week was a funny one, what with the Full Moon and the Equinox. Illuminating the need for balance and the concept of rebirth as we enter Spring.
Spring is all about planting seeds and beginning to see the brave growth of new life as it gently wakes up and reaches for abundance.
What are you reaching towards?
To help you along the way, here are some affirmations for Spring and Ostara. Say them out loud or to yourself, feel into the feeling of each of them and if it feels sticky or uncomfortable, pay attention to why; that is where you need to work on releasing a block.
I am well.
I am healed.
I an healthy.
I am whole.
I am abundant.
I am free.
I expect and I receive miracles every day.
Happy Ostara, sending you so much love!
Em x